ESTA ES SU CASA--AUGUST 2013

ESTA ES SU CASA--AUGUST 2013

RENEWAL

THE BEACON “crowned” my last newsletter in memorable fashion.

https://www.stlbeacon.org/#!/content/31748/voices_dulick_death_070713

I’ll be in St. Louis September 17 to October 15. I would love invitations to speak at your school!

Well, now, don't make the same mistake Julio Burgos did when he heard that Guillermo was getting "chemicals." He thought Guillermo had died and was getting embalmed! "Gotta bring him back for the funeral." In fact, Guillermo is not getting "quimio" (chemotherapy) at all, but the gentler version of radiation. He's just finished the first week of 35 daily treatments. I  saw him and Erlinda this morning at the out-patient clinic at San Felipe Hospital in Tegucigalpa. He's in good spirits, in fact they both are, and that has a lot to do with YOU. They thank you all over again for your renewed commitment to their health. And I include both, because Erlinda will miss her own appointment in Progreso next week, so I gave her some money for her diabetes medicine Metformina. They are staying with family in barrio Santa Fe here in the capital. Guillermo will be re-evaluated midway through this cycle of treatment, so keep up the good work! I am piecing together your donations as soon as they come in, and meanwhile the lovely quilt of your prayers and kind thoughts is one size fits ALL.

I'm grateful for your help, too, with my $400 light bill. The latest bill was normal (about $50), so maybe the Electric Company will come to their senses and admit their mistake. If not, it's lights out for me. I'll have to get a job at Walmart. Just kidding...I hope.

I came to Tegucigalpa to get my computer repaired. The "Superdrive" keeps spitting out any disc I put in. Apparently hauling a laptop for hours on end on a bouncing bus over dusty roads takes its toll. Fortunately, it's covered by AppleCare, but while they get the new part from Miami, I'll be limping along, computer-wise for at least two weeks. God only knows what this CASA looks like on your screen. I'm patching it together at a cybercafe on a computer with a broken space bar. 

But this letter is about hope!

When Pope Francis spent last week in Brazil at the World Youth Day, I think a lot of us got inspired all over again about taking our faith "outside," where the poor are. To serve the poor, to live with the poor, to share our life together, a mutual exchange that transcends any "religious" differences or distinctions. The other day, rumors were flying that Manuel, the young man I mentioned before as our 'poster child' for poverty in Las Vegas, had died suddenly. Epileptic and mentally retarded, not to mention the victim-son of  Renan, an unregenerate drunk, he could go at any time, you'd say. Folks were gathering for an evening Mass, and everyone was asking me about him. I guess I was very happy to know how many people were concerned, and that they felt I had some special relationship with Manuel. I called the only two phone numbers I had for Terrero Blanco, where Manuel lives, and got no answer. The weird thing is, a group of us had just spent all morning in Terrero Blanco at a church meeting, and no one said a word about Manuel. And I, old and decrepit, was too worn out from the hike even to stop by his house. But now I burst into action. I spotted a couple kids from Terrero Blanco and asked what they knew. Nothing. But did they have a cell phone they could call someone? Word came back that Manuel was in "agonia." When no one came during Mass or afterwards to ring the funeral bell, I thought at least he's still alive, and I would go up to Terrero Blanco in the morning, since by now it was dark--and dangerous. 

Next morning, I was getting ready to go when Manuel's grandfather Pilo comes down my street. It seems that last night, Oracio, a teacher at the school who has a nice truck, went up to Terrero Blanco to get Manuel and bring him to Pilo's house in Las Vegas. I was not sure what I would see, but when I got there, Manuel was moving, awake, even taking a little soup. Maybe he had a little stroke or something. He could not stand or walk without a lot of help. He could only respond about once every five minutes to questions. I gave the family some money, but not even Oracio was convinced that they would take proper care of Manuel.

A few days later Manuel was back in Terrero Blanco, and when I saw Chemo's supper in the fridge untouched from the previous night, and a cool, overcast day, I had my "sign," and I set off. A dear friend of mine served as a chaplain at an old folks home, and taught me that even persons who seem totally out of it can still sing, and when one old lady pulled him near to whisper in his ear, she was reciting the "Our Father." Manuel was sort of nested in a filthy bed, but he managed to sit up and enjoy the food I had brought, along with a cold soda. His sister and sister-in-law are helping take care of him, and a younger brother Dennis. And some neighbors check in as well. And then he sang. "God is here and He loves me. He sees me in the streets and comes to visit me." I actually think he might have been inventing that one! Four songs, actually, each one at least twice. And when I tried the "Our Father" deal, he picked it right up. Otherwise, he barely said anything, just gazed with wide eyes. His father Renan was "fishing," they said. Good thing I didn't see him.I woulda made HIM sing, ya know what I mean....

Three big events related to school kept everybody busy. Another round of 600 nacatamales for a fundraiser. I hated to see the women work so hard at it, but they voted for it, so I did my best to get supplies and then visit each of the three groups about four times apiece as they labored all day and into the night to fill their quota. Another big success.

The Day of Lempira, the heroic native who resisted the Spanish invasion over 500 years ago, was celebrated July 20 in Nueva Palmira. Because of the many schools participating, only the top two students from each grade were invited. Well, that left Chemo out! The boys dress up like warriors, the girls like princesses. But for me anyway, the highlight was Hermana Pilar, a nun from Spain who has visited us ever since Hurricane Mitch in 1998. She has not been here for several years, so I was eager to get a photo of her with Eli, the little boy whose life she saved when he was almost dead from malnutrition, a two-year-old at the time that practically fit in your two cupped hands. This day, he was Lempira!

Then Earth Day the next weekend in Carrizal. This time, everybody was invited, if you could afford the bus fare! Chemo definitely wanted to go to this, especially when I agreed to pay for, as he put it, "two girls I'm friends with." This celebration of how we're all so worried about the Earth, 'cause you know it's in "agonia," and we're all going to work together to save it, involves competitions, in costumes, paintings, "maquetas" (models), and above all in song. Only problem is, the losers throw fits, as one school did when their performance got Second Place. They wouldn't even accept their prizes. Sorry, Earth, looks like you're on your own! But, really, they should have rejoiced for the winner, a terrific sixth-grader from Guachipilin who wrote his own song and American-Idol'ed the heck out of it. 

I have to include here (partly because I don't know how to remove it on this borrowed computer!) a beautiful picture of Virginia Ramos, on her birthday, from when Chemo and I visited Morazan the beginning of July. I've known her and her family since my very first visit to Honduras in 1977, and I swear she never seems to age!

Little Fernanda is having birthdays, too, and her daddy Jalmar and mommy Delia invited me to the party for her third one to take pictures. You will have to photoshop a smile on her face, because she's still not so sure about the protocol.

Last year at this time, we were planning my brother John's funeral, a perfect day in Forest Park at a picnic ground near his beloved Muny. Apparently, John is still leaving "signs" of his presence there. If you go as the season of shows comes to an end, you might buy a box of popcorn--and share it. That was John's first job in high school, and he may still be "hawking" his wares.

Thank you for your presence, wherever you are, wherever I am.

Love, Miguel

ESTA ES SU CASA--JULY 2013

ESTA ES SU CASA--JULY 2013

ONE FROM THE HEART

The Beacon polished up last month’s report:
https://www.stlbeacon.org/#!/content/31229/voices_dulick_poor_060313

Sunday, June 16, was a day full of promise. In the morning, a special Mass with 15 boys and girls making their First Communion. In the afternoon, a new session of about 20 couples already in committed relationships for years, now preparing for the “sacrament” of matrimony.

Little did I realize the chasm that would open at our feet, leaving the whole town staring into the abyss. As the couples group was breaking up, and I love to just sort of sit in, the smiles and relaxed touches suddenly met confusion outside. But I blithely walked along till Tala’s stricken face stopped me. She answered the question I did not even have to ask.  “Tres muertos.” Three dead, Chimon, his wife Santos, and their grandson David, 17, murdered, shot up in an ambush near San Antonio, about an hour from Las Vegas. Chimon is always on the move with his big truck, packed with building supplies or enormous bags of grain and coffee, trips to San Pedro every week, usually 3 or 4 extra “hands” riding in the bed to help with the loading and unloading. This time, only one, Ery, my neighbor with Down Syndrome. That’s what Tala was trying to tell me! “No one knows where Ery is!” Did he get away? Did they go after him? Is he dead, too? If Ery is gone, too, cry havoc....

For one very long hour, we held our breath, till word came that Ery had been picked up by the late bus, due in Las Vegas about 6:30 p.m. Min’s bus, first one out at 5:00 in the morning, to San Pedro and back the same, long day. Every time there is a death, I discover more connections. When the very first person who clasped and held Ery off the bus was Maria Juana Vianney, one of the leaders of our parents association, I learned Ery is her godson.

They brought the bodies back the next day; they arrived in three stately caskets, their heads heavily capped. The truck was recovered, too, but I was relieved to find its cab covered with an ample tarp, to conceal, as I had heard, the splashes of blood and brain and scalp. That tragic line-up of three caskets seemed almost absurd, a wicked joke. How much can you take? You just felt helpless, moving from one to another and back again, each an incomprehensible sight. Did this really happen? That was the theme on FACEBOOK, too, as word got around to Las Vegans around the country and in the States.

I had just seen Chimon a couple days ago, still limping heavily from a broken leg when he fell asleep at the wheel last year and crashed; he just wasn’t patient enough to let it heal right, and ever in good spirits, his lame walk from a distance looked more like a dance. Santos I barely knew, but her hospitality was legendary. David was a big kid, and he looked huge in his casket, so cramped in there I was sure he would get up and stretch.

David was a prominent member of the Youth Group, so it was no surprise that Padre Manuel arrived at the house in an early-morning rain. He held an impromptu prayer service. The gospel reading of the day just happened to be from the Sermon on the Mount, where Jesus says, “You have heard it said, ‘an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth,’ but I say offer no resistance to evildoers.” Padre Manuel, who as a priest in El Salvador, must have given this sermon a hundred times before, reminded us that violence, revenge, hatred, is not the way of resolving conflicts. It was fitting and passionate, but afterward it occurred to me he had not mentioned “resurrection.” Hope, yes, but unspecified. Later that day, Manuel offered Mass in the front yard of the house for a large crowd, including Ery moving along the edges, where I sought him out to hold his hand during the “Our Father.” Again, Manuel gave a powerful defense of love and forgiveness to break the cycle of violence, but still no “resurrection.” I thought, am I the odd one? It’s such a natural theme at times like this that I wondered if Manuel was just determined not to spout cliches. Indeed, I questioned myself, do I take this article of faith for granted, so automatic a comfort? Do I actually believe it, after all?

By the time it was my turn to preach at the novenario a couple days later, I had searched my soul and searched the scriptures and re-found my faith, starting from scratch, you might say. So I leapt into the resurrection like a cliff-diver. I hoped I was not just indulging “my thing,” but this family and our whole community was down for the count. As Martin Luther King said when he nearly despaired after so many death threats, bending over a cup of coffee at midnight, “I discovered then that religion had to become real to me, and I had to know God for myself.” This was real! And a couple days later, when I got another chance, I realized no one had mentioned Ery yet. So I leapt on that, too. As best as we can figure, the killers let Ery go because he cannot talk. His “handicap” saved his life! And really ours, too. So there’s the caution for the “quality-of-life” philosophers who deny the dignity of human diminishment. But Ery is far from safe himself. Maria Juana especially is keeping close watch on him, from medical attention (“injections” of B Vitamins, a sort of cure-all around here) to sitting and “talking” and loving touches, and comfort food, too. I guess we are pretty primitive, compared to professional help in the States. (Is there even such a specialty as “Down Syndrome psychologist”?)

At the regular Sunday Mass a week later, Padre Jaime also did not mention resurrection. He was certainly passionate enough. “If you hate, you do not believe in Christ! If you kill, you do not believe in Christ! If you lie or gossip, you do not believe in Christ!” But he seemed to blame us for the violence, with the whole family sitting right in front of him. “You let me know if you’re going to keep this up, because if you are, I won’t be your pastor any more!” I don’t know. In such emptiness, I suppose I would opt for the “Comfort ye my people” approach, the way Handel’s “Messiah” starts. I felt like saying, and I did say later at the novenario, if Padre Jaime doubts our faith, let him come to the novenario!

It really was something, the novena of mourning. Usually, after the initial wake, I get most of my chairs back. This was the first novenario I’ve seen where they kept adding chairs and benches and church pews every day. The whole nine days were a witness to our faith, Catholics and evangelicals alike. The thought occurred to me, there are three dead, there should be three novenarios, one after the other. But there are limits! The family, though much consoled, were completely exhausted. Every day they prepared refreshments for us, and on the last day, platefuls of tasty food. Padre Manuel offered a final Mass at the house for the occasion. Still no resurrection; in fact, you could tell that the depth of the tragedy was getting to him, too. “With this Mass, we finish the mourning, and tomorrow we pick up our lives again and move forward,” but neither his voice nor his demeanor was convincing. I wanted to tell him about the resurrection! But I felt more like crying than ever. As a gentle rain fell and we huddled for shelter, Manuel said, “These are God’s tears,” a metaphor he denied when it rained at the first Mass (“This rain means life!”). The beautiful thing was that the rain kept us all together even after the Mass ended, just talking and thinking and finishing up the leftovers, as if no one ever wanted to leave, till even the family stopped “waiting” on us and just sat down, really for the first time in nine days. It was a liturgy all its own, till at last the weather cleared and stars came out and folks headed for home.

The next morning, another lovely custom: coronation, that is, decorating or “crowning” the grave with all the flowers, remembrances, and settings that have accumulated during the novenario. The tomb was stunning; perhaps befitting a man in the construction business, it is a work of art, a spacious bed of concrete overlaid with emerald-green ceramic tiles, and three metal plaques, each etched with photo, dates, and biblical citation. Ana, Chimon and Santos’s very capable daughter, had asked me, “You know, we’re pretty ignorant about the Bible, could you suggest some quotations?” Well, I had to answer that! “Any family that has as much love as this one does, and shares it so freely, is NOT ignorant about the Bible! I can suggest some words, but YOU are living the message!”

You almost hope that, if you really dwell on this death, these deaths, somehow it will stem the tide and hold off another onslaught. But even our catastrophe was just a drop in the bucket of a country swimming in massacres. A few days before, a young policeman, his wife, and baby were killed in a town some miles away. A few days after, in another town, four killed and ten wounded at a church service! Escaping the violence has become the number one reason--not economics--Hondurans give for braving the gangs and deserts along the border to get into the United States, 100,000 a year.

So that’s why I cringed at the thought of Chemo joining the soccer players for a game in San Pedro Sula between Las Vegans from here and Las Vegans working or studying in San Pedro. “If you go, Chemo, I’m going with you.” It was the start of a mid-semester break at school, and Chemo hadn’t had much “fun” this year, so we went, my finger on the trigger, as it were.

Actually, the expense was the really scary thing about the trip. Can I just interrupt myself to put my cards on the table? I just got socked with a $400 light bill (it’s usually no more than $50) and I can’t pay it. It’s cut the legs out from under me, as far as helping anyone, which means I’ve lost my reason for being here. Everyone--except the Electric Company--says it’s a huge mistake, and I’m trying desperately to rectify the situation, but you know nobody robs you more efficiently than the government, so I’m scared to death. And that’s just the tip of iceberg. Whenever possible, I use a credit card, so I’ll “never” have to pay. So I’ve done a pretty good job of robbing myself! It’s a problem of my own making, obviously, since I give everything away, a habit I learned from some very excellent people, including my sister Nancy and the new Pope, following Francis of Assisi’s example, which is not helping my situation! I thought I could wait till I got to the States to beg, but I better get going, as unseemly as I may appear. Can you help? Just know your prayers and lovingkindness are as tangible as any donation, since my spirits are as low as my funds.

Anyway, victim of a misguided austerity, I refused to buy Chemo some soccer shoes, called “tacos.” So righteous I am. But once the game started, and I saw him on the sidelines, I said, “Let’s get you some shoes!” I knew on a busy Saturday afternoon in Choloma (a suburb of San Pedro), we’d find tacos pretty quickly, even though the first person we asked pointed unhelpfully to a stand across the street offering “Tacos, Enchiladas, Burritos.” No! We need SHOES! A few short blocks in and out put us in front of Oliver’s Shoe Store, and twenty minutes later we were back at the stadium.

Chemo played the whole second half, and he was so thrilled just to get into the game, but of course he had to keep his game face on, you know, lest someone think this was just child’s play. Meanwhile, I snapped enough pictures to fill a book.

When our bus spent the whole next day in the shop getting its brakes fixed (details, details!), Chemo and I finally opted for a bus to Morazan, to visit Fermin and Maria and family, which was our vacation plan anyway; we just showed up a day early. There we spent the rest of the week, and we loved it! But I did not have my computer, so that’s why this CASA is delayed till now. It’s OK, because, except for the last couple paragraphs, I didn’t want to write it anyway. You may feel the same way about reading it.....

But you are my life!

Miguel